October 23rd, 2018

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Pallet Birdhouse DIY

 

Today in North Idaho it is sunny and 61 and from what I understand the weather in general has been wonderful for over a week. If you are located in a place where the summer forest fires bring in thick smoke then you will appreciate a few extra weeks of nice weather at the end of the summer in a seasonal area.  The last few years our summers have been downright miserable which is extra difficult when you have only a few months to be out on the lake. It is hard on tourism and local businesses. Also there are many hard working men and women firefighters away from their families and facing danger. Crossing my fingers that next summer is better.

Today I took a moment for a little DIY birdhouse project. I love repurposing pallets and birdhouses are easy, useful and quick.  People always love getting these little birdhouses and what bird doesn’t love a sweet little home!!

Joy comes in small packages! Just the smallest amount of effort can make all the difference.  I’ll give this gift to someone who will then gift me with a smile or a hug in return.

I make my future and so can you!

 

 

 

October 22, 2018

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Today in North Idaho it is sunny with a high of 61°.  I believe for the next week I can expect the same temperature in my current location in Washington.

It is interesting to be off on a Monday while the majority of the rest of the world is working, or maybe that is just the US.  Regardless, I walked to the store this morning and it was so peaceful and quiet.  The store itself was a little lazy which fit just fine.  I’m guessing the morning shift is probably the least interactive.  Purely speculation on my part.

Today I’m going to stay in and catch up on some day to day chores.  Also, a friend’s granddaughter is coming over around 11:30 so I’ll have company until around 5:00.  This young lady is twelve years old and is very intelligent.  I’m excited to spend time with her and see what the world looks like from her eyes.

Enjoy your day and be open to new possibilities.

 

October 21st, 2018

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Today in North Idaho it is sunny with a high of 61°. My current location is starting out foggy again but promises sun later this afternoon.  I’ll be taking a trip to Mount Rainier National Park and will fill you in on that adventure tomorrow.

Today I want to talk about witnessing my mother being abused when I was a child.  The memory that came to me today was when I was in seventh grade.  My mother wanted to go out with her girlfriends and my step father would not let her take the car.  They fought often so hearing them yelling at each other was not out of the ordinary.  Looking back it seems to me that I would catch part of the fight, the yelling, and would stop what I was doing to see if it was going to last.  Time would stop while I waited for the ultimate escalation of events. Abusive langue, the crash of something being thrown or falling over, running or doors slamming.  My young mind racing with what may be happening.  When the event continued I would find myself on my feet walking towards them.  I needed to see but felt nervous and scared as to what I would find.  This time I rounding the corner of my bedroom and standing in my doorway watched my stepfather dragging my mother by her hair over a bicycle laying in the living room that was to be her source of transportation that night.  My mother had no clothes on and some part of the bike had caught her upper thigh and ripped it open.  I could see the blood, muscle and bone, my mother crying and trying to hold her leg together.  So much blood.  Her husband screaming “look what you made me do”.

My mother looked up and saw me looking on and told me to call the police.  I was literally paralyzed.  I stood there processing this scene until her voice slowly came to my attention.  I knew I needed to get to the phone. I knew I needed to move my body.  I could almost feel the location of the phone but could not move towards it.  I could also sense the location of my step father.  He was pacing and looking at my mother and looking at me.  He looked at me and said, “Don’t you dare touch that F’ing phone!”  I feel a wet warmth on my face.  I feel my feet start to move towards the phone. I feel him yank the phone from my hand and slam it back into the holder on the wall.  I see him storm into the bedroom and slam the door and scream out to my mother, “Don’t you come back when your pussy gets hungry.”  I’m unsure about the rest of that evening.

I have had a lot of counseling in my adult years.  I was diagnosed with PTSD and began EMDR (Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing) therapy.  In this therapy I was taught how to watch a memory happen in third person which allows me to remember but not marinate in the trauma.  I highly recommend this process to anyone who has experienced any kind of trauma in their life.  It is not a cure, and I’m sure there any many other wonderful therapies out there, but this one was a gift for me.

In my opinion, one of the worst things we can do to ourselves is to allow our childhood to negatively affect our lives as adults.  I used to hold tight to those painful memories as well as the people that hurt me as a child.  The promise was that I would wait until I was old enough, until I was no longer a hostage, to return that pain.  However, the truth is; the way to get free is; the way to win your future is; simply let go.  It is so much harder than it sounds and yet truly so simple.  I just don’t hold space for those people who broke my trust, broke my heart or broke my spirit.  They did what they did for their reasons and to an innocent child with no way to protect herself.  Shame.On.Them.

The memories I have are part of me and always will be.  More importantly they are part of my toolbox that allows me to see others in a way that is unique to me.  I can spot that pain, comfort and offer direction to heal that pain in someone else. It is a gift not a burden.  It is the way I choose to use that very emotionally expensive education to better who I am today.  I can help others exercise their nurturing memories and release what will no doubt hold them back in their adult life.  I can teach them about Frankincense.

Today started with a memory I would not have chosen for myself.  Today I shared a little part of me and that is my gift to you.

Never Stop Learning about the world or yourself!  Our education often comes in different forms, different institutions and different people.  It doesn’t end when we graduate a program or receive a degree.  Strive to be a better person today than you were yesterday.  Always keep your feet on the ground~

 

October 20th, 2018

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Today in North Idaho it is sunny-ish with a high of 63°. My current location started out pretty foggy but ended up sunny and the perfect temp to go walk around town and visit shops.  You know the kind of shopping in which you buy absolutely nothing but enjoy yourself immensely by simply communicating with others and generally seeing what shopkeepers find to be the next big thing. I did find a few annual planners that I thought my daughter would like but decided I was unsure of the size she would need so I passed.  Sometimes it is nice to pass.

I find that at this point in my life I pass on a lot of things.  I mean, don’t get me wrong, I am a very social person and have stimulating people in my life.  I just mean that I no longer feel that I MUST participate.  I used to feel that if I didn’t join in then I would be ostracized.  I would find myself doing thing that I didn’t really enjoy year after year thinking Why Am I Doing This!?!?  Most of the time there were activities that I felt were personally unhealthy or people that I thought were unhealthy.  Unhealthy in lots of ways like they drink or smoke to much, they cheat on their spouses, they ignore or avoid their children, they look down on others and generally feel they are to good for people.  And how on earth are you a good person if you’re not in ONE of those groups.  Either your a good person or your a bad person… or are you just a person trying to figure it out!

It was just a lot of energy in the wrong direction.  So today I think long and hard before I commit to a project.  I make sure the time I’ll be giving works for my lifestyle.  I make sure I can give the project what it needs and vise versa.  I’m looking for connection and service coupled with smiles and a betterment of myself and whatever project I’ve jumped in on.  And things happen that are unexpected and that’s okay.  I’m okay with riding out the curves because nothing and no one is perfect.  I’m also okay with saying No Thank You and I Don’t Have The Extra Time.

Today take a moment to know your limits.  Yes, push your comfort zone but know how far you’re willing to go and know that you can and will find the next exit if that is to the betterment of all concerned.  Embrace the life that you create!

 

 

 

October 19th, 2018

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Today in North Idaho it is sunny with a high of 62°. My current location has a high of 62° and I am grateful to slow down, unwind and catch up.  It seems doubtful that the sun will make an appearance but what the weather lacks in light it more than makes up for in fog!  Tea anyone!?!?

The last few days I have been flying by the seat of my pants.  No true plans except to move forward and enjoy the road and the countryside.  I had not been to the beach in a few years so knew I would need to make that trip happen.  The weather did not disappoint and the sand and water were actually warm.  The ocean air is so calming.  I observed that many people brought their blankets to spread out and lay on.  Several men brought chairs to sit in by the ocean and initially I thought they might have a line in but in fact appeared to be sleeping.  That really speaks volumes as to the relaxing nature of the ocean or water in general.

It is interesting to note that the air seems heavy and yet light at the same time. Even when the beach is busy there is a lack of weighty sea air on your skin.  Laying on the sand and catching a nap still holds the mental equivalent of someone partitioning your small area from everyone else.  It is as if we all have invisible boxes and we all attempt not to invade the other party’s box.  Don’t step on their blanket or towel and don’t kick up sand!!  Beach rules have not changed!

When I was a child living with my grandparents we would make a trek to the beach in an old motor home.  I specifically remember the sea air, sand buckets and shovels, bathing suites with towels hanging on the back of chairs, grandma cooking inside the motor home and grandpa cooking outside over the campfire, seashells of all shapes and sizes everywhere and late night potty breaks using a Folgers Coffee can.  I remember thinking how eating was such a bother when there was so much to do.  Such sweet simple life affirming moments to look back on.  Nothing else mattered and everything was right with the world.

Today I remind you to continue to play in whatever fashion that presents itself to you.  Play so long that you forget to stop and eat.

 

October 18th, 2018

Today in North Idaho it is sunny with a high of 59°.   I am enjoying temperatures in the low 70s and have started down the coast of Washington departing Port Townsend and investigating Crescent Lake Lodge, Moclips Beach and Quinault Lodge. An unexpectedly beautiful day made for some wonderful photos.

There is a whole world beyond your fence.  Go see!!

October 17th, 2018

Today in North Idaho it is sunny with a high of 61°. I have been traveling around Washington and have decided to share some of my photos for the next few days.  Needless to say the weather has been beautiful and I feel blessed to be on an adventure and meeting new people.

Meet someone new today and don’t forget to take your shoes off~